Weirdest thing happened during today’s podcast. I got on to talk about my experience in relationships that lack reciprocity and midsentence I had an epiphany that caused me to reconsider my perspective.
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Today, I realized something during the podcast that will shape the way I view myself in relationships moving forward. I realized that there was a flaw in my interpretation of what happened in past relationships. It didn’t turn to self-blame, though. Just a new perspective and something to consider that I’d like to share with you.
Trigger warning: I do mention and talk about sooizsidull ideation in this episode (and something else similar but ADHD so I can’t remember what it was.) Nothing extreme, though. I don’t describe an act or anything. Just the presence of the thoughts and how certain circumstances can invite them in.
This is a valuable conversation about trust and authenticity in relationships. I think you can gain much from it. So press play (above) and let me tell you a story.
So today I came home and was met with an opportunity to protect my peace.
Someone asked me a question that I knew was an intro to a conversation that I didn’t want to have. And you know what else I realized? What they were asking was none of their business.
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In the past, I would’ve handled things differently. But today I just kept walking. Granted, it could be considered rude not to respond to a person who is clearly speaking to you. AND history has taught me that with this person doing the “right” thing, and engaging them in conversation, was inviting an argument. And I don’t argue. So I kept walking and closed the door behind me.
Sometimes protecting your peace looks like rudeness to other people. The same people who will rudely inquire about your personal business, will call you rude for not responding. And in the past, I’d answer, because nothing mattered more than being “nice.” I had to protect my image.
However, now, I protect my peace. I no longer engage in conversations that I don’t want to be involved in. I will stop midsentence. You’re not gonna force me to have a conversation I don’t want to have, or to open the door for you to disrespect me. I’m not answering your question. Mind your business.
Period.
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We’ve got to stop letting people cross our boundaries because society says we’re supposed to behave, respond, etc. in a certain way. If you know that you’re being set up for an argument and the only way to get out of it peacefully is to walk away, let your feet take you toward peace. Or at least that’s what I’m gonna do.
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So yesterday I decided to tackle a task that’s been evading me for quite some time. I decided that I would use ChatGPT to support me in staying on task and to talk through things as needed.
I was so excited to finally be making progress on this thing that’s been nagging at me for weeks (well, months… a lot of months). Although I was making incremental progress in part, after a while I realized I wasn’t actually making considerable progress on the whole. I became increasingly agitated as I realized that despite all the work I’d done —and that I worked all day—I hadn’t actually made much visible progress.
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I tell the full story on today’s podcast and the really unexpected conclusion I came to as I compared the amount of time I put in to the amount of work I pulled off. But as frustrated as I was by what I hadn’t accomplished, I realized something important when I looked at just how much effort it had taken me to do all I did.
If life for you has primarily been uphill, and you find yourself wondering why everything seems to take so much effort, press play above. I’d like to tell you a story.
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Sooo…. even though I am Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist I am not always feeling empowered. I honestly became empowering for others as a result of NOT being empowered. I speak life into others because I had to speak life into myself. I know what it is to not hear those words, so I give it… both to myself and to others.
This post is not my typical find the blessings in the bullsh*t post. This is my “today was some bullsh*t” post. I started to not post it, because it’s not super positive and it’s really honest at a time I was really not doing well emotionally or any other kind of -ly. AND I find it valuable to be honest, whether good or bad. If for no other reason, it’s important to know that people can relate to your low places and that just because a person is putting out positive content doesn’t mean they don’t have low moments.
So this is raw. This is open. If you’re new to me, this is probably the opposite of what I usually post. AND I feel it has value. I have a general rule that I follow my gut (not my fear of embarrassment), so when I feel compelled to post, I post.
So here it is…
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I recorded this yesterday morning. So much has happened since then that I cannot believe it was just yesterday. I actually just went on Facebook to double check that it was actually yesterday that I was so emotionally done that I posted “I can’t do this. I’m so tired. It’s gotta get better. I just can’t” because that’s exactly how I was feeling….
I got halfway through it yesterday, but just didn’t have it in me to finish editing it until today. So I’m posting it now.
If you saw that post and wondered “what the heck is going on with Marlene?” here’s your answer. Press play above.
Quick disclaimer/info in case you’re wondering. Although I was very upset and life is holding me down on the mat currently, I am not a danger to myself or anyone else. I am safe, just sad. It’s been a lot with no recovery time. And it really got to me yesterday. Since then I’ve rested a lot. Laughed when things were funny. (This video helped A LOT.) Listened to some great audiobooks. Slept with the window open. Cleaned a bit. And I’m a lot closer to neutral, which is progress. Things have not changed, but my emotional response to them has mellowed. So I’m grateful for that.
Anywho, thank you for being here. Thank you for your support of my work and my podcast.
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