Doing MY Best

Can I be honest? I still carry a lot of shame and blame… for things that I know aren’t even my fault. And I’m not even talking about deep past stuff. I’m talking about if someone’s in a bad mood, I still feel like it’s my job to fix it—that I failed them in some way.

It’s wild how childhood stuff shows up in adulthood. We can be so hard on ourselves.

But what if we’re actually doing our best?

To Be Honest, I’m P*ssed

When I look at my life and what it is, versus what it could be with supports, it’s the most gut-wrenching, soul destroying feeling in the pit of my stomach…. I think the thing that makes it most bile-like is knowing that I could have had a completely different life, if my society was notContinue reading “To Be Honest, I’m P*ssed”

Given What I Know Now, I Owe Myself an Apology

You know so much of what we feel embarrassed about, guilty for, and shame regarding are things we need to revisit with the knowledge we now have as adults. This morning, I sat reviewing the imagery that comes to mind when I think of money and relationships. Not the imagery like when your mind replaysContinue reading “Given What I Know Now, I Owe Myself an Apology”

When Your Shoes Are Tied Together

You ever seen one of those videos where a person is relearning how to walk and they take their first steps? That step is what it feels like for me each time I accomplish something while dealing with ADHD and executive dysfunction.