This is (obviously) part three of a series. The topic is… hmmm… I guess the topic is what do you do when you discover an old script from your childhood is running your life?
It started with a blog post, then there was a podcast episode. And now we’re here at the final episode in this series.
This episode is admittedly longer than my typical, AND it all needed to be said. I think if you hang in there you may hear something that’s for you, too. This was very healing for me, very vulnerable, very honest, and very real. So get a drink of water and press play.
Apparently, the impact of back-to-back losses and trauma, while constantly giving out of my emptiness has left me with nothing left to give.
Burnout is real. And if you deny yourself for too long, while pouring out of your deficit, you may hit that subbasement of burnout where in order to survive you have to pause and get real with yourself.
On this episode, I realized that my greatest fear is showing up purely as me with nothing to offer. Having purpose has been my way of achieving and maintaining connection, love, friendship, etc. And now that I have nothing to give, I have to face the reality that I don’t know how to just be and trust that I will be accepted.
I’m grateful I recorded this podcast episode, as vulnerable as it is. I need to know. I needed to see that all this masking, even while being increasingly authentic, is just me hoping for acceptance, while fearing if I don’t get it right, if I don’t do enough, that love will be withheld.
If you’re down for a deeper story, not one full of laughs, but a real story, press play.
Thank you for being here.
Tap here to check out yesterday’s blog post.
A series of events led to me realizing that I have some inner child stuff to clear up. Between the emotions I’ve been navigating lately and some insecurities that were stirred up, I had some epiphanies that I believe may help you on your own self-love/self-acceptance/self-compassion journey. Listen to the podcast.
FYI I cuss so wait ’til the kids and elders aren’t around. Press play to listen to today’s podcast. Blessings!
From yesterday’s blog post…
“Fingers crossed that I post the part 2 🤞🏾😂.”
Yay. I got it done! (Let’s see if I can get a Part 3 done tomorrow-ish. 😆. C’mon ADHD. 🤞🏾)
Blessings!
Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist
