Life’s Best Route

Image of a map with detours and reroutes. Caption states Despite life's detours and delays, I choose to believe I am on the best route. Marlene Dillon Empowerment specialist.

A lot of times we find ourselves feeling down when things aren’t going as we believe they should. We are convinced our plan is best. It feels amazing to travel through life with no detours or delays. I’m not so sure how realistic that is though.

What I am learning is that the ebb and flow is part of the journey. One comfort that I have gained recently is to realize that I see my life from the ground level—the street view. I can only see what’s directly in front of me, not what’s coming down the road. That’s not the comforting part, lol. The comfort is that I get to remember in any given situation that there is an aerial, or bird’s eye, view that I cannot see. From that perspective, every traffic jam and reroute makes perfect sense. From that perspective it is apparent that no matter how it seems on the ground, I am on the best route.

For people, like me, it’s challenging to surrender control. When life throws us the unexpected detour, and the journey doesn’t look the way we thought it would, we easily lose faith. We know the route we planned. We want to stick to it, because it makes us feel safe. Being in control feels safe.

Lately, I’ve been experimenting with giving up control. In moments when my GPS refuses to cooperate, I just toss my phone aside and say, “Hey, you know my intentions and you probably know a better way. Guide me.” I honestly can’t tell you specifically who I’m speaking to. It could be Jesus, the angels, guides, ancestors… it doesn’t matter to me. I just know they help when I ask. Within in seconds, I feel calm and inspired to turn here, then there, then cross over that bridge, and suddenly I’m looking at the upgraded version of my vision.

Even when I’m having a moment of contrast—when I’m feeling frustrated that things aren’t as I desire—I remember that I have support surrounding me, and surrender. I relax into that knowing that there is a way for things to work out even though I can’t see it. And somehow things shift. Even when the situation can’t change, my view of it suddenly changes.

With these recent shifts, I am realizing daily that control is overrated. Honestly, as much as I’ve tried to manipulate every detail of every second of my life, it’s far from ideal. I’ve still been thrown so many curve balls that it’s a wonder I am still sane. But I’m still here. Despite all of it. When think of all the things I worry about on a daily basis, and then look at all I’ve survived, worry seems so silly.

It’s exhausting trying to manage and manipulate every one of life’s detail. And it’s pointless. So I’m going to keep experimenting with remembering I’m supported, setting an intention, and surrendering to guidance. No matter how big or small, I get to trust that I am supported.

If you’re one, like me, who is exhausted from micromanaging the details, maybe consider giving up a little control. Try it on something small. Maybe instead of ordering from the same restaurant, you try the one your friend recommended. Maybe you watch that Netflix show that keeps showing up. It could be your new favorite. Maybe you intentionally make a wrong turn and let the GPS reroute you, and take the scenic route for a change.

Maybe you’ll join me in saying my new affirmation, “Despite life’s detours and delays, I choose to believe I am on the best route.”

Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist


Do the Thing

I have envisioned this painting for YEARS. Each time the idea came to me, I got super excited, thought it was a brilliant idea, and seconds later my mind was filled with reasons why it wouldn’t work. Every reason, from my artistic abilities, to concerns about time, money, and supplies, the weather, or if I felt “up to it,” came rushing in and choked out my excitement. Before I knew it, years had gone by and I hadn’t painted a thing.I let the reasons talk me out of doing the thing I so passionately wanted to do.

Lately, what’s been coming up for me are the concepts of permission and congruence. I’m in a season of my life where I am painfully aware that I want to do far more than I have ever allowed myself. I have reasoned my way out of living a full life, and I’m over it.

A few Sundays ago, a dear friend texted me and said it was a nice day and I should get out the house. Immediately, I knew what I wanted to do. I was going to drive to the lake, find a great spot, and do my painting! And, just as before, my excitement was soon followed by a flood of reasons to stay home. But this time, I decided that the only reason that mattered was that I wanted to paint at the lake. I ignored all the discouraging reasons that came to mind and did something different.

Instead of allowing my thoughts to control me, I chose to take control of my thoughts. I blocked out the discouraging questions, and asked myself empowering questions. “What do I want to do, today?” “What do I need to bring with me?” “What do I need to get on the way to ensure I enjoy my time?” I answered these questions, packed my paints, brushes, etc. and got myself to the lake. I gave myself permission to do the thing that I let my thoughts talk me out of countless times. It felt great!

The other thing I am working on right now is congruence. You ever wanted something, but also believed you can’t have it? Well, I have been dealing with this opposing energy in a few areas. I have been aware of it for a while, but I decided that knowing it is no longer enough. I am ready to do something about it. I think it was Jim Rohn who said that knowledge isn’t power. Knowledge is potential power. What we know only empowers us if we do something with it.

Imagine being the engineer on a train that’s supposed to be heading south, but every few stops you run down to the other end and drive the train north for a little while. That’s kinda what we do with our goals sometimes. We get an idea, get excited about it, do a little planning, and maybe we start talking about it. Someone brings up a less than positive point and we start to think of all the reasons it might not work out. Opportunities come, but we don’t feel ready so we put them on the shelf. I know I have done plenty of this in the past. I’m ready to move my train in one direction….FORWARD toward my goals.

I have to get real honest with myself and stop ignoring those things that cause me to retreat from my forward steps. It’s time to work through, heal, get over, and in some cases ignore what I need to in order be fully congruent with my intentions….

Maybe you have no desire to paint, but have been contemplating writing a book. Maybe you’re not interested in writing a novel, but have a classic car in the garage you haven’t worked on in years. Maybe you’re ready to start a blog, become a mentor, or look for a new job. Maybe you’re ready to date again, clean out the attic, or find a summer activity for your child. I just thought I’d share this with you, because I realized when I took control of my thoughts and began to ask more empowering questions, I was able to do something I’ve been putting off for over a decade!

If there’s something you’ve been wanting to do, take a few minutes and ask yourself more empowering questions. Imagine that you got it done. Walk backwards, mentally, through the steps that you took to complete it. If your vision wasn’t possible, you probably wouldn’t feel pulled to do it, right? So believe it’s possible and start moving toward it. Remember our minds aren’t trying to ruin our lives. They just want to keep us safe, by giving us reasons to avoid potential failure. However, often, it’s the avoidance of potential failure that’s keeping us stuck.

Let’s stop doing the Cha Cha with our goals. Let’s approach them differently, ask ourselves more empowering questions, and give ourselves permission to do the thing.


Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist

By the way, I took the photos above that Sunday at the lake. The last is the finished painting. If you’d like to own it, check out my Handmade page for purchasing details (if it’s still available).


Fool for Love or Marked for Manipulation?

Image of desert background with blue sky. Text states I forgive myself for trusting you  more than me.

“There is a difference between a fool and a “mark.” We are all capable of making silly choices, but some of us were targeted for manipulation. When we make that distinction, we can begin to retell the story to ourselves in a way that allows us to forgive ourselves and reclaim our power.

After completing a relationship, where we felt someone took advantage of us, rather than be tender with ourselves, we tend to beat ourselves up. We label ourselves as silly, foolish, gullible, and naïve. We look for reasons why it happened to us, what we did wrong. We view our positive characteristics as weaknesses. We draw conclusions like, “People think I am stupid,” “no one can be trusted,” and “that’s what I get for being so nice.” We say things like, “I shouldn’t be so trusting” and “good guys finish last.” Sometimes we even decide to become more like the ones who hurt us believing that if we drop the kindness, and put on the “heartless,” we will protect ourselves from future hurt.

Unfortunately, when we review our situations from a place of feeling victimized, we don’t heal. We often put on protective personas that are not us, and put up protective walls so high, and impenetrable, that even the good can’t get in. It’s the equivalent of stacking bandages on an infected wound. The bandages may provide some protection from additional outside injury, but they are also preventing the wound from being cleaned, receiving antibiotics, and being left to open air to heal.

When we don’t take the time to address our wounds, they remain decaying under our “protection.” We are helping the wound to fester. It is in our best interest, to at some point, address the infection.

What is the infection? The beliefs we took on about ourselves as a result of the relationship. The habits of deferring our power to another. The surrender of our boundaries, rules, and expectations. All of these need to be cleaned from the wound, if we want to truly heal.

Today, I realized that I get to look back at my past experiences in a more empowering way. I can assess the experience after the fact, like an insurance adjuster. I get to objectively review my past and see where things went wrong. What I realized is that it was wrong long before the relationship ended.

Sometimes situations come up and they seem to “blindside” us. I believed that for a long time. However, when I looked back, objectively, I realized that my relationship was wrong from the beginning. I knew it, I saw it, and ignored it. No one took my power away from me; I gave it away. When I recognized that truth, I felt empowered. I realized that although that person targeted me for manipulation, that I ignored what I saw and listened to what I was told. I was not a fool, although I may have played one.

I am so grateful that I took the time to look back on situation after situation, not from a place of anger, or even hurt, but from an objective place of assessment. I put myself on the witness stand and asked the tough questions, such as:

  • When did you realize that things no longer felt right?
  • When did you compromise your beliefs, standards, expectations?
  • Did you feel the relationship was feeding you or draining you? Picture the moments when you felt this.
  • Look at the numerous times you thought about walking away. Why were you ready to end it those times?
  • What were some times that you remember it did not feel good anymore?
  • When did you feel you were being dragged along but weren’t fully in it?
  • What were the big compromises? the ones that left you feeling you had betrayed yourself?
  • What was your original plan? Did you stick to it? Did you take on their plan?
  • Do you recall times where intuition told you something wasn’t right? What were some of those moments?

I asked myself question after question and DID NOT BEAT MYSELF UP. I just asked the questions to show ME where I compromised MYSELF. I saw the numerous moments when I pushed myself to go along with what didn’t feel right. There were numerous moments where I saw our core values were not aligned. There were numerous moments when I felt as if intuition was screaming, “Pay attention!”

Taking the time to recognize this was so powerful. I realized that I surrendered control when I turned down the volume of my intuition. Seeing that helped me to realize it was a choice. From now on, I choose to trust myself more than I trust anyone else. I am wiser than I gave myself credit, and likely you are, too.

If you were in a relationship that negatively impacted your self worth, or if you can review your timeline and realize you were happily on your way up until that relationship came along, it may be a good idea to assess what happened. Feel free to use some of my questions above to help yourself review it objectively. Maybe ask a trusted close friend to go through the questions with you, if you feel you’ll need support, or bring it to therapy.

I set aside a few hours to unpack this and I felt so light after I was done. I didn’t even realize I was carrying that weight all this time. Be objective. Act as if you are a detective looking for clues of when it stopped being a blessing.

DON’T BEAT YOURSELF UP. You are looking for answers that will help you see the truth, heal, and move on with your life. There were lessons in that relationship that can empower you, and likely someone else. Look back with the intention to forgive yourself for trusting someone else more than you trust yourself. And decide to never let that happen again.

Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist

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Redefining Success

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What if the reason we don’t feel successful is because we are judging ourselves by someone else’s definition of success? What if it’s not that we set the bar too high or too low, but too specifically? What if it’s possible to redefine success in a way that propels us toward our future dreams without making us feel presently inadequate?

Have you ever thought about how you define success? Maybe you have, but I know for me my understanding of success was an accident at best. It came from what I saw applauded in my environment. “Sherry got straight A’s.” “Jeff is a National Merit Scholar.” “Did you hear that Mary’s daughter graduated with a 4.0 and is heading to Princeton in the fall?” “I heard that your classmate that became a doctor—you know the one who married that lawyer—they’re having twins! Oh, and they just moved into a 5 bedroom mansion in L.A.” Throughout most of our lives we’ve received subtle, and not so subtle, hints about what success looks like. As we’ve observed the words and reactions of our family members, teachers, siblings, and society, we have learned what is and isn’t success. 

The interesting thing about the word success is that it is more a concept than an actual physical thing. It’s not tangible, though many may define it by status and acquired possessions. Success is an idea. Ideas differ from person to person. You could ask one hundred people, “What is your definition of success?” and you’d likely get an equal number of answers. For some, having a million dollars is how they define success. While others feel successful if their family is happy and healthy. Some will feel successful if they can afford an apartment and pay their utilities. While others don’t feel successful because they don’t have a vacation home. 

There are perceived norms of development that society uses to define what successful looks like at each stage of our lives. From birth ‘til death, we are taught to compare ourselves to others of similar age, gender, religious affiliations, and so on. We contrast our “progress” and feel that we are a failing student, an irresponsible adult, a terrible spouse, an unessential employee, or the worst parent. However, since we all have various experiences, natural tendencies, priorities, responsibilities, skills, etc., if we evaluate our worth by some broad definition, or worse, hold ourselves to a standard that feels unattainable, we can go our whole lives feeling unsuccessful. 

The reality is that everyone is different and that means that we each need our own definition of success. For the longest time, being rich and married, with two kids and a huge house in the suburbs was my definition of success. Having a steady paycheck as a doctor, lawyer, nurse or government employee, my own home, and no debt was my parents’ definition. Graduating with honors, tons of scholarships, and a bazillion Ivy League acceptance letters was the definition I learned in high school. At every stage of my life, there has been an implied meaning of success that was devastatingly out of reach for me. And it made me feel horrible about myself. I kept trying but I was often pursuing goals that didn’t matter to me or weren’t aligned with who I am. They just felt really important to everybody else. I wish I knew then what I know now.

What I recently realized is, if I don’t set my own empowering definition of success, I will never attain it. I cannot afford to give another second of my life toward pursuing other people’s goals for my life, nor attributing my self-worth to what I do or have. For the rest of my life, I choose to define success by who I am and how I show up. I am willing to change my definition as often as needed. 

I currently have a note to myself on my wall that states, “I choose to believe and accept that SUCCESS is believing in who I am today and who I am becoming.” That’s my current definition. So all I have to do is believe in myself—my present and my future—and I’ve had a successful day. That’s success that’s attainable. That’s success that empowers me to feel good about myself and to move forward. 

Our definitions of success often do us more harm than good. It is essential that we take the time to make them empowering. I challenge you to take a few minutes and think about how you define success. Does it empower you? Is it aligned with your truth, your priorities, and your current beliefs? Does it make you feel good about yourself? If not, give yourself a chance at success. Create a new and empowering definition, today. 

Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist

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