If you’ve been following me for the last few weeks… months… lol… you know that life’s been lifin’. Before I could recover from one blow, I’d get hit with another. Sometimes WHILE I was actively dealing with one problem, another came….
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Anywho… I had been navigating through the life’s cesspool for a while, trying to keep it positive, but honestly a few days ago, I had reached my limit.
I talk about what happened (and honestly tell more of this story than I feel comfortable sharing in writing) on today’s podcast. If you care to hear the rest, check out “The Gift of Giving Up” above or on SoundCloud below.
Today, I realized how much I put my life on hold…. how I am merely existing because of fear.
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The amazing thing that I realized as I was recording today’s podcast is that the main fear that gets in my way is the fear of interrupting my flow.
I am a creative person. My primary purposes on this earth are centered around creating and being in a flow state. One of the hardest things on earth for me is to get in a flow state when I know I’ll be interrupted.
This is a HUGE realization for me. I now see that when it comes to being creative, I’m not stuck or stagnant. I am in need of planning uninterrupted time for creating.
And maybe you feel stuck in your life and your ideas seem to have dried up. Maybe it’s not that you’re stuck. Maybe your mind is waiting for you to provide the right environment and atmosphere for your ideas to flow.
Where do you feel most alive? What do you see, hear, smell, experience that causes your creative juices to flow? In what small or large way can you access/plan for that this week?
If you listen to my podcast you know that I often have rain and water sounds playing in the background. Being by water inspires me. However, sitting by water or walking along the beach is not always readily accessible. So I go on YouTube and search for videos of rivers, streams, beaches, etc. And I stare at the water and listen to the waves.
Sometimes the mind isn’t as picky as we think. We feel we need to GO on vacation (and trust me I get that because I haven’t been away since July of 2020). But the mind may get calm from watching beach videos on your flat screen, while you put your feet up and enjoy a virgin cocktail at home.
We may have to set new boundaries and put ourselves on our schedules. Especially if you work from home, boundary setting is so important. I know for myself, I need to feel less guilty (not at all is ideal… but baby steps) about not being available. I do not like saying, “No,” to people.
It upsets me when I see a disappointed reaction on someone’s face because I didn’t say, or do, what they hoped. AND I am learning to be more okay with that every day. I have to. Because if I don’t master this, I’m never going to have time to enjoy my life. And that’s no longer acceptable.
You may need to decide what you need in order to be more you. This awareness today is a big one for me. So now my work is to put ME on MY schedule.
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What do you do when you realize some of the beliefs you’ve held your whole life aren’t true? What do you do when the words that once comforted you are nothing more than empty promises? How do you process life when what you used to hold on to… doesn’t hold up to scrutiny?
Well, this where I was yesterday. And it was really emotional for me. The disappointment of feeling like a fool for the decades of putting my hope in nonsense, coupled with the frustration of watching unethical people win (while I lose)… The unfairness of it all was too much for me. Even the concept of what is “fair” and my need to now define it was all I could think about.
Needless to say, I cried yesterday… more than I knew my body was capable of crying. I had to close and lock my door because I couldn’t control it. One thought and I’d be bawling again.
Releasing what I believed not only affected my present. It also impacts my future. I had to release hopeful expectations that I to those beliefs. And then I had to accept that new beliefs needed to replace the old. And that really broke me down.
After giving 40 years, I didn’t want to have to start over with new beliefs. That’s what really got me crying.
It wasn’t truly until this morning that I realized what was truly happening. I was mourning my past beliefs…. I had to release the (inner) embarrassment that I believed that sh*t for so long. I had to accept all that it meant to find those beliefs to be false. had attached that in order to move forward my life, I have to fully accept that what I used to believe just doesn’t work AND that the new thing lot of the words people had fed me over the years in the form of encouragement, really held no weight….
And because I am decent human being, who is not a “misery loves company” type, I won’t tell you which beliefs no longer support me. I want you to have all the hope in the world. If you are meant to come to these conclusions, you’ll get here on your own time. You’re welcome.
And with that said, as we go through life, we have experiences that may rock our core beliefs so painfully that we’ll never see things the way again.
What I learned yesterday…. well, really as I processed things today…. is that we need to allow ourselves to transition. We need to give ourselves the grace to not stop on a dime and pivot to the new beliefs. We may need to take a day (or a month) to mourn.
We move on so quickly from things. Let’s give ourselves time to accept what isn’t before we go on to redefine what is.
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Day 26 “Accepting Our Own Boundaries” #MARCH4WARD Share & Let’s Share and Let’s Live! #Podcast Series w/ Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist
“Sometimes we are the ones who need to make peace with our boundaries because we feel guilty for putting ourselves first.” — Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist
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