It can be very painful to experience the same hurts repeatedly. This is why I am so committed to personal development.

The unfortunate reality is that we’ve been taught some things that aren’t healthy, that don’t serve us, and that cause us distress. Many patterns in regard to relationships, money, our health, and even the ways we view ourselves have come from beliefs we learned from others.

I remember Louise Hay once said that babies love themselves unconditionally, they’re never thinking, “Goodness, look at my thighs.”  However, we over time pick up on beliefs from those in our environment, and from what we see, hear, and read. Overhearing others’ experiences, watching television, the news, and learning from how other’s experience us, all informs our beliefs and expectations.

A lot of our beliefs and expectations were dumped on us, or spoon fed to us. We may not even be aware of the beliefs we hold about certain things because we’ve never thought about it. We are attracting, and repelling, our desires based on our inner beliefs and expectations. Unfortunately, that means that our desires are often not in alignment with what we believe.

Lately, I have been taking inventory of my beliefs, because, honestly, I am tired of not having what I want. I realize that I need to be certain that my beliefs about what’s possible for me, and what I actually expect will happen for me line up. There’s a difference between what’s possible and what’s probable. It’s important that we feel solidly in our favor with both.

To this end, I am working through a ton of beliefs that have created patterns in my life that I don’t want to continue. I am ready for a new experience of life so I have to be willing to do the inner work to shift what I’m attracting. I am beyond the “I believe this because this happened to me,” phase. That is just a first step. Even though I didn’t actively install all this beliefs software, it’s still my responsibility to uninstall it. Yours, too. 

So if you missed my point….

Healing our hurts, beliefs, and expectations is a HUGE part of attracting differently. In order to be in alignment with what we desire, we need to clear out beliefs that don’t serve us, AND develop new beliefs that do. We also need to ensure that our expectations match what we want. We need to imagine ourselves experiencing what we desire, and shift any beliefs within us that make that hard.

So, how do you even do that?

If we keep noticing an unwanted pattern, we have to take a minute to sit with ourselves and ask some REAL questions about the subjects that cause us the most distress. Questions like:
– “What do I believe about relationships, money, my health, etc.?”
– “What do I believe is possible for me in regard to having _______?”
– “Why don’t I trust ________?”
– “Why do I believe they can be/do/have ________, but I can’t?”
– “What did my family/environment/television teach me about _________?”
– “How does this belief show up in my life?”

We have to take the time to see what our beliefs have created, and attracted, in our lives. Then, we get to decide if we want that to continue. If we don’t, we can begin to tear down that belief. One simple question for doing this is, “But is that always true?” If we can find one instance that it’s not true, that’s enough for us to begin to question if this belief should be a rule, or used on a case-by-case basis, or thrown out all together.

And, if we’re really honest with ourselves, most of our beliefs came from opinions. That means they are made up. You may think you’re “fat,” but in another country/culture, people see you as “too thin.” You may feel you’re “broke” because you can’t afford the newest iPhone, but to a person who doesn’t have clean running water, you’re rich. It’s all relative. It’s all opinion. It’s all made up.

And since it’s all made up, anyway, we might as well make up new beliefs… ones that actually serve us. We can take our answers to those questions above and rewrite them into beliefs that serve us. We can shift. We can make new rules. We can create new beliefs. We can choose from now on to believe whatever serves us. I mean, we’ve believed plenty of lies about ourselves, why can’t we make up some new truths?

I’m rewriting my beliefs. I’m committed to attracting differently. Are you?

Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist
#Proud2BNaturalMe

Today, I was challenged to look at those who are already doing what I want to do. Although I coach people for free all the time, and have been the counselor friend my whole life, I don’t yet offer coaching as one of my business services. I’ve been working through limiting beliefs around that, and today, as I looked at all the amazing coaches I know, I realized something really cool.

I am probably directly connected to over 20 life coaches on Facebook. I’m in their groups, we’re friends, I learn from them (and hopefully they learn from me, lol). As I looked at them today, I realized that even though they are all amazing—and share the desire to help others grow in the ways they have—they are all unique.

Many of them teach similar concepts, but their delivery is different. Their stories are not the same. Their experiences are not the same. The way they present their material is not the same. It’s so amazing to witness….

So often we hold ourselves back from pursuing a dream or goal because we think the market is too saturated. But, when you go to the grocery store and walk down the cereal aisle, snack aisle, or the coffee/tea aisle, how many different brands are there? Do you just close your eyes and grab whichever one, because ultimately they’re all the same? Probably not. They are unique. Each has a different flavor.

We are equally unique. We have our own flavor. Just because “everybody’s writing a book nowadays” doesn’t mean you shouldn’t write yours. Just because “everybody wants to have a podcast” doesn’t mean yours won’t reach specific people who will only respond to you. Just because “everybody thinks they’re a motivational speaker” doesn’t mean you shouldn’t get on stage, or do your lives, or hop on Zoom, when something within you is calling you to do it.

We’ve got to turn down the volume on the noise that talks us out of what we know wants to come through us. We need to turn up the volume on that voice that’s telling us we have something to offer.

I chose to turn up the volume and write I’m Proud to Be Natural Me! and create my products because it was part of my calling. And even when another author came out with a book that almost stole my title and literally took the words from my description and used them for her own, I still didn’t stop believing that my audience is my audience and nothing changes that.

My next step is to start believing the same about me as a coach. I’m doing the work to eliminate the limiting beliefs that I hold around stepping into that space. I need to turn up the volume on knowing I can help people. I need to turn down the volume on all the what if’s.

Maybe you can relate. Maybe there’s something you’ve been putting off doing. Whatever that thing is that you think you can’t do because there are too many others doing it (or whatever other reason is talking you out of it), take the time to turn down that noise and go inside and listen to the voice that is telling you that you have something to offer—that it’s yours to do. Maybe there’s someone specific, or even a group of someones, that only you can reach.

Think about it.

Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist #Proud2BNaturalMe❤️💜💙💚

Our dreams and goals belong to us. It’s important to recognize, on the journey we’ll be offered opportunities to show ourselves that we are committed….

I decided at the end of last year to be more committed to our wellness. I decided to stop buying certain go-to snacks and sweets so that they weren’t easily accessible when cravings occurred. I went the extra distance to express to the members of my household not to offer those items because they work against my intentions and it’ll be hard to say, “No.”

So I was initially perturbed when this person offered a tasty, high calorie treat in front of my child. The old me—as in, the last week version of me—would have been silently annoyed, possibly expressed a fraction of my displeasure, then conceded, saying something like, “Fine. We’ll start again next week.” Not, today.

I kindly (picture Claire Huxtable) reminded this individual of the request I made less than 10 days ago, for them to not offer sweets as they work against our wellness goals. I resisted the urge to feel guilty for declining their offer, and insisted that they put it back where they found it.

After the interaction, I was pissed. It kept playing over in my mind. I found myself questioning why they would work against me, and why they couldn’t support my intentions for our betterment. Then, I thought about my post yesterday. “When we let go of the disappointment of people not being who we designed them to be in our minds, we can appreciate them for who they are.” I realized that they weren’t attempting to sabotage my wellness plans, they were just being themselves. In their mind, the offer was kind. They found something they thought we’d like and in the past that would bring us joy. I realized that I didn’t have anything to be mad about. Actually, they gave me an opportunity to practice my commitment.

For some reason I can never remember which spiritual leader I heard say this. I feel like they were a well-known Buddhist monk. I just remember (and I’ve told this story before) that when they were asked if they ever get angry, they laughed and said something like, “Of course.” The only difference for them is that they are committed to returning to that place of peace, so they choose to say, “Thank you for the opportunity to practice.”

It’s such a beautiful thing to realize in any given moment, we can regain control of how we respond. We can shift our perspective, on any situation—when we are ready to feel differently. We can stay true to our intentions, look at all forms of contrast, and say, “Thank you for the opportunity to practice.”

Try it. It really works.

Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist#Proud2BNaturalMe

We all have experienced thoughts that talked us out of doing a thing that was on our heart… those little perfectionist tendencies, and fears of criticism, that say we should wait until we can do it better.

For me it’s this pixelated, low-res image of myself at the end of my Year In Review video. It’s the pic that I use on everything because I think I look super cute. It’s one of my favorite pics of me. I rarely ever take a selfie, and it’s even rarer for me to like the ones I do take. (I think I’m way cuter in person.) Honestly, I haven’t been photo ready since the pandemic. It’s all pj’s and hats going on over here.

Anywho… so yesterday, I was ready to post this video and I paused because the last frame is not perfect. I haven’t taken professional photos and I as I watched the video I cringed at the quality of my pic. I really wanted to use it because it is the only photo of me and I wanted to be in my video. I kept hearing the voice of imaginary viewers saying, “Dang. She couldn’t get a professional headshot?” I thought of the many business coaches who I’ve heard say, “If you want people to take your business seriously, you need professional photos.” I paused and nearly scrapped the whole video!

Then, I remembered an epiphany that came to me the day prior. I realized that… and this is super vulnerable… my ultimate goal for most of my life has been to avoid criticism. Everything that I’ve wanted my entire adult life has been so I could finally feel safe. Until the moment I received that insight, I had no idea that the elusive finish line—I’ve been pursuing since my 20’s—is the day I get to exclaim, “I have all my ducks in a row, and there’s nothing left for anyone to criticize!”

Good luck with that one, Marlene.

The important thing about this discovery is that I realized it’s a hopeless pursuit. Idon’t have control over anyone else’s perception of what I do, or of what they feel I should do differently. I will never be able to please everybody.

So I decided that I’m done trying to please everyone. From now on, I’m going to do my work for me. I will still have standards, but I’ve decided to let my intentions guide me rather than my fears.

I’ve decided to be more committed to my intentions, than I am to avoiding what I fear. So from now on, I’ll “feel the fear (of criticism) and do it anyway. That’s my plan for 2022. I’m leaving the old way in 2021. It didn’t serve me, anyway.

So let me tell you about my video….

This year has been a major deep dive of inner work and personal development. I have been working on me ALL year! One of the greatest decisions I made, was to take you along for the ride.

I decided to show up more by blogging about my journey and my epiphanies along the way. I always add a “call to action” so that you’re not just listening to me drone on pointlessly. I want you to get something out of it, too. So I offer you some ideas of ways you can incorporate my lessons into your own journey.

I am so grateful that you are with me, walking this path and growing in your own way. This year I started blogging several times per month and I create my own memes to go with each blog post. My video is a collection of some of my favorite memes I created this year. Thank you so much for joining me on this journey. Thank you for how you evolve and show up in this world because we’re all connected. How we show up matters.

Thank you for your support of me, my work, my posts, my art…. all of it. I am grateful for you being a part of my community—which I decided yesterday morning to call my Empowerment Community. As I empower you, you also empower me. Your uplifting comments, shares, and likes inspire me to keep going and to remember that I am not alone. It is a blessing to have your company on this journey.

Continue being good to yourself and the people who cross your path. Continue doing good in the world. It all matters. Your ripple is far bigger than you can imagine. You matter. You are amazing! You’re a blessing to me and to our world. I am grateful for you.

Blessings! Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!

Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist

Creator of #Proud2BNaturalMe

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My Year in Review video is just images, text, and music. I’ve provided a description of each frame below. Blessings!

• Frame 1 – Blue screen with white script text states A Year in Review
• Frame 2 – Image of a purple flower with raindrops on petals, facing downward, stem bent; Text in purple states “All things work together for good.”
• Frame 3 – Image of desert background with blue sky. Text states “I forgive myself for trusting you more than me.”
• Frame 4 – Image of a camping site with tent and wood fire. Text states, “Let’s stop building houses where we should be pitching tents.” Inspired by T. D. Jakes.
• Frame 5 – Image of series of archways in perspective, each one appearing smaller than the one before it. Text states Our thoughts guide our emotions.
• Frame 6 – Image of a young woman with curly hair holding a cellphone. Text states: “A thought is a suggestion —to keep or discard is our choice.
• Frame 7 – Image of heaven, bright sky with clouds and streams of light from center. Text states: We are all connected. Follow intuition. Don’t hold back.
• Frame 8 – Image of a winding road from driver’s perspective. Trees line the sides of the road. Text states: The past is over. What are you going to do with the present?
• Frame 9 – Image of an orange, black, and white monarch butterfly on a yellow flower. Text states I love myself unconditionally—all I was, al I am, and ALL I am becoming.
• Frame 10 – Image of a gray brick wall. White text outlined in light blue states Stand before the people you fear and speak your mind — even if your voice shakes. Maggie Kuhn
• Frame 11 – Image of a winding road with trees on both sides. Text states We will never reach our individual destinations navigating our lives with someone else’s map.
• Frame 12 – Image of close up child with folded arms staring into the distance. Parents in background arguing. Text states Children believe it’s their fault. It’s our job to teach them it’s not.
• Frame 13 – Image of a ocean shore line. Turquoise water, foamy waves against a sandy beach shore. Text in dark bluish green states What if our assignment as parents is to get our children to their destiny…. whole?
• Frame 14 – Image of close up of four plants growing out of soil, each at different growth stages. Green background. Text in green states, “Problems are opportunities we create when we want to grow.” Louise Hay
• Frame 15 – Image of two children dressed up in silver astronaut costumes. One wearing a helmet. One wearing goggles. Both sitting in a homemade spaceship of tin foil and soda bottles. Text states, Stop asking children what they want to be when they grow up, unless you intend to speak life into their dreams.
• Frame 16 – Image of person holding and looking over a resume with a stack of more resumes before them. Text states, You are enough. Maybe they were just underqualified.
• Frame 17 – Image Close up of a sheet of ruled paper and the tip of a pencil. Text states You matter. Your presence matters. What small thing can you do today to make a positive impact?
• Frame 18 – Photo of Marlene Dillon smiling, natural curly hair, black blouse. Text states Marlene Dillon Empowerment, I’m Proud to Be Natural Me! Author Illustrator, MDillon Designs & Publishing Owner

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