Today, I found myself feeling really stressed and “off,” so I decided to follow intuition and seek higher guidance. The way I do this is by having a journal conversation between myself and… myself. lol Within us dwells a knowing, a higher self and periodically (not as often as I could), I tap into this knowing and ask for guidance.
The paragraphs below is an excerpt from my actual journal conversation. There may be typos and grammatical errors. Actually, I’m certain of it. And I wanted to maintain the integrity of the experience so I’m leaving it as is. Well, enjoy. I hope you gain something from it.
Releasing Panic: Stay in today.
And what does that mean?
It means that I don’t have to go into a panic and imagine everything going wrong, because I’m not going to do this right, or have this, or know that. I can choose to relax today and see the future as less than doom, dread, and things destined to go wrong and choose to release it for today and set a positive intention that I am fully supported to achieve. I don’t have to have a pleasant idea and immediately tear it down with all that can go wrong. I can savor it and picture it as I want it and stay calm about it, knowing that with my calmness comes clarity. I’ll know what to do and what my next steps are if I just breathe and enjoy the idea of it for a while. And that’s okay to do. I don’t have to go into immediate “how” mode. I can stay for a while and savor the moment. I can calm down and imagine it going exactly right and the pleasure of that.
And maybe if that feels hard, I can start to process what began the process of panicking when a new fun idea comes up. Could it be that in childhood whenever a new fun idea came up I only had so much time to figure out how I would get my parents to say, “Yes,” and how I needed to quickly discover every one of their possible objections and find solutions for them all BEFORE asking. And could it be that with all that groundwork, I still more often than not still heard, “No.” Could it be that I am in adulthood reacting to the repeated trauma of not getting what I wanted, even though I did everything right? Could it be that my heart is racing and my breathing is shallow because I realize how important this thing is to someone and I don’t want to disappoint them so I’m doing all I can to make sure it works out by preparing from now to make it happen?
Is that possible? Does that help you breathe better? Does understanding make it make more sense? Okay, good. Now, breathe. Remember you’re an adult with no one to answer to. AND before you go seeking out the details, rest. Just savor the idea of things working out, today. Let it go for today. Calm yourself. Breathe. Everything is going to be okay. Okay?
So this is what it looks like to talk myself down from a panic moment. This is not a staged panic to give you an example. This is my actual work to calm myself about something my daughter wants that I went into immediate single mom panic about being able to afford. But today, I decided to follow higher guidance and journal it out rather than let all that anxiety sit in my body. And I’m glad I did.
Blessings!
Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist
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