So I woke up and immediately got back to the journal prompts in my newest, life-shifting read, Amanda Frances‘ book “Rich As F*ck.” (I HIGHLY RECOMMEND IT! Especially on #Audible where you really get to be in her energy. I listened overnight two days in a row, and began approaching life differently. Now, I have my first viral video, which I posted after following a series of intuitive nudges I received the day after I started listening to her book. Coincidence? I think not. I don’t even believe in coincidence.)
Anyway, back to my story…
Soooo…. I wake up and start working through the questions in step 2 of her amazing system for clearing out unhelpful beliefs. I was making a list of all the reasons my inner mean girl (who I call the #catfish**) believes my dreams are not possible.
I was jamming. My list was getting so detailed (especially the parts about my pending soul mate), that I had worked all the way down and crammed as much micro-scribble as I could into that skinny line at the bottom of the page, continued up the right margin, across the top, and then vertically down the left edge of the page. I was getting into it! I found more space to the left of my bullet points and began working back up to the top. As I eagerly squeezed in my last scribbled possibility at the tippy top of the left margin, I saw the words, “Not possible.”
See, I started the list yesterday, but wasn’t in the mood because I had been working for hours on these beliefs. When I was beginning the list yesterday evening, I wrote, “Not possible” in the margin as a prompt to remind me of what kinds of beliefs I was listing (in case I got off track). When I woke up today and continued the list, I had forgotten all about my two-word reminder at the top of the left margin.
To be honest, the list started out with that “Not possible” energy. The first five were painful. It started out as a “this sucks that I can’t have these things” list. But as I got going, I began hearing Amanda’s voice in my head saying, “Anything that says I can’t have what I want is a lie.” So as I began affirming her words as I listed my dreams. They became more detailed the more I excepted them as possible. I got really excited listing my possibilities.
I was flowing. I was writing so fast, frantically scribbling in details that I now realized were possible. Then I hit those two words, “Not possible.” My joy came to a screeching halt. It was so deflating. And my inner catfish was right there, hands on hips, pursed lips, saying, “Mmmhmmm… You thought! But it’s ‘NOT possible.”
Right then, I remembered Amanda’s words, and heard her voice in my head saying, “Anything that says I can’t have what I want is a lie.” I looked at those two words, crossed out that “t” in “Not” and replaced it with a “w.” I defiantly said back to that catfish, “NOW. POSSIBLE.”
I will forever be grateful to Amanda Frances for her book, and how she’s poured into me and so many other women in her community, with her empowering knowledge. I am so grateful for the insomnia that led me to my Audible wish list at 4 a.m. two nights ago, and that I followed the intuitive nudge to grab her book and begin it immediately. I am so grateful for how unapologetic she is about being herself, which reminds me that it’s okay to be unapologetically me. And, I am sooo grateful for my new mantra that reminds me my dreams are “NOW possible.” So are yours.
Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist
BTW…. I HIGHLY recommend purchasing Amanda Frances’ book, “Rich As F*ck” if you are tired of dealing with the same struggles with money AND are ready to do the inner work to shift your beliefs. It is one of the best investments I ever made. She also offers many courses on her website that are empowering for women around finances, entrepreneurship, course creation, overcoming perceived setbacks, and more.
** “Catfish” is a term I use to describe that inner voice that tells us we’re not enough, talks us out of our dreams, and is generally discouraging, although well-meaning. After much awesome feedback on my You’re Being Catfished blog post, I decided to expand this concept into an upcoming book titled You’re Being Catfished: 7 Strategies for Overcoming Your Inner Critic, set to be released November 2022
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