Many of us have gifts we don’t use, skills we’ve abandoned, and passions we won’t give ourselves permission to embrace. For me, that’s songwriting.
Every once in a while, I dip my toe in the water, and then I run, again. Part of it, of course, is ADHD. I forget that I’m supposed to be working on music, OR I am so busy trying so hard to do day-to-day life that working on my music feels like a luxury I don’t have time for.
Well, I made time yesterday and posted a song that came to me in my sleep. And soon after all the insecurities came rushing in. I started to second guess everything about the piece and that I posted it. I began to back away from it with a feeling of “maybe no one will listen to it,” while feeling a sense of longing for the original vision to be actualized.
Originally, I saw the song being one of those viral trends of people creating videos of themselves singing all the parts in harmony. And the feeling I had while envisioning that was enough to make me emotional. But then I had the thought of other creations and inspired ideas that I felt that same certainty about that didn’t take off. And that mean internal voice, that tells me to not expect much, was right there to assure me that “No one is going to listen,” “no one even knows you so they’re not about to create a video of your song,” and “the song isn’t that good.” And I listened. And as the day progressed, I believed every word a little bit more.
So on today’s podcast, I outed myself for my insecurities. But I also want to acknowledge that I still did it. And I’m not taking it down. I’ve left room for people may be listening and viewing and just not commenting or liking and it doesn’t mean anything. Then I went to the truth that I believe that says, “My job is to create it and share it. What happens after that is none of my business.” And that’s what I’m trying to practice now. It’s not easy.
Today’s podcast is hilarious. I laughed so much during the recording and as I was editing. It’s light-hearted and inspiring and empowering. And it’s legit one of my favorite podcasts to date.
If you have never checked out my podcast, this is a great one to start with. You’ll get to experience all my sides and get a good idea of who I am as a person and why my podcast is different… in a good way. And you’ll receive some encouragement to do the thing you’ve been putting off because of fear and life and all the other things.
You get to do what’s in you. You get to cultivate your gifts. You get to share your talents. It’s not immature to do the thing that makes you happy and brings you joy. It’s not irresponsible to have a little fun while you’re here. If it’s not hurting anybody, but it hurts you to not do it, hey… you only live once. You get to do it with more joy.
Let’s do this thing with more joy. Let’s take baby steps toward bringing our passions, gifts, and interests back into our lives. Let’s let it be okay to do what lights us up and brings us joy. Let’s embrace those discarded parts a little at a time.
Check out today’s podcast. Remember I cuss. Don’t let it distract you. It’s actually quite funny.
Blessings!
Marlene Dillon Empowerment Specialist
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